AncientWhisper's Xanga

Half of a Farewell

Mon, 25 May 2009 01:02:44 GMT

I've never thought that I'd come back to Xanga again, but I think I owe everyone an apology.

I kept on claiming that I'd be back, but I never came back. I'm quite sure that people wondered why, but I am also positive that a majority of you have answered the question by yourself: Xanga traffic. It is no doubt that Xanga's activity have slowed down after the Myspace and Facebook invasion. Let's admit it: not many people uses Xanga anymore. Despite the thousand or so subscribers I have, I'm pretty sure that 95% or so have already left by the time I've completed writing this.

I didn't "come back" to design more layouts. I have always thought of doing so, because my designing skills have not faltered or withered away. In fact, my designing skills are blossoming more than ever everyday. What I do take notice of, is that nowadays--- everyone can design layouts. Especially with what I'd call my previous "horrible layout tutorial", HTML and CSS isn't quite as difficult as it seems. (and that everyone has photoshop and have used tutorials.. *cough*) It requires patience, sure... but the real challenge is actually having the ability to design well. While I do not see too many people who are able to utilize their skills to enhance their layouts, most people would rather use their own creations. Most people would rather show off their layout skills and acquire followers.

But enough of that; those are basically the reasons why I just couldn't come back here. There were people--- yes--- but, people no longer used my layouts so my hours spent on the layouts were never put to a "great use".

As for life...

I've had my fair share of doing shameful things. I've had experienced the ups and downs in life. Within a year, I have become much more mature. I promise! =] In fact I can't help but to believe that within each passing year, I came to shun my former self. So I'm not going to bother much with reading my previous entries. Too many painful memories, as you can say. However, I've changed for the better and that's the truth.

Anyway!!! I'm not here to tell you my life story. :D

If you had wondered about where you could have discovered me after I've left Xanga, there were a few alternatives. Ironically, they are all posted on this profile. I still use my Myspace and my deviantArt. I also use my alternative Xanga, although that have been set to private except for a couple of people (for good.). So there's absolutely no hope of getting in there. Kill me for being a hypocrite (actually, please don't. Hahaha), but I am on my Myspace more. The reasons are also obvious... "everyone's on Myspace" in the sense that all of my friends from school uses Myspace. It's a great way to contact one another. I also have a Facebook, but I rather that be private. If you’re too curious for your own good; go scavenge for it yourself.

If I were to ever use the whole "Ancient Whisper Productions" gig on this Xanga site again, it would most likely be for my artwork or Myspace layouts. Then again, it wouldn't make sense to display Myspace Layouts on a Xanga site. No sense at all. I do not plan to make any future Xanga layouts, although that may still be a probability. And if I were to do so, I would only occasionally design Xanga layouts (as in, one layout per half a year or so. =[ )

And LOL at Nacktmono... And may I add that I used to know this person like a friend and he made layouts?

"hey ugly ass your pictures suck dick and your ugly"

Haha, it would make more sense if I had actually permanently left Xanga before someone trolled me. (this was written on the chatterbox) I don't mean to sound conceited, but I have enough confidence in myself enough to know that my pictures and I don‘t "suck dick" and that I'm not ugly. :3 Hating that I used to make layouts which were popular or something? My apologies. Seriously, be more mature and go troll elsewhere.

Kthnxbai

Anyway, that was just nice to say. I always wondered if there would be people left to talk trash about me after I left. :P That’s the difference between now and then. Had I have read that message a year ago, I would have whined and returned the insults. But I no longer take things too personally; since I have mentally grown up.

As for now, I shall leave you with my artwork (which are posted all over this specific blog). So if you were wondering why there were pictures oddly scattered on here; they are my drawing and artwork. You can click on them to go to my deviantArt page where there's a higher resolution of the pictures. My skills have improved by a lot since I’ve last displayed them, but I am nowhere near a professional. I suppose that people no longer know what my dreams are for the future since it‘s been so long.

I used to want to be a Mangaka, but let’s face it: that’s definitely not happening. Not only that, I’m over the whole Manga and Anime phase. I tend to concentrate more on Video Games (yes, I still love Final Fantasy), and reality. Currently, I’m trying to find a way into the Art Institute of Dallas where I will be studying Video Game Designing or Animations. What is it? Basically, you design characters, make them 3-D and study various other stuff such as storyboarding for Video Games. =] That’s the summary in a nutshell. I still need to learn how to draw animals, Mecha/Vehicles, and Monsters. The road will be long and hard, but that’s the career I would like to pursue.

AND! Even though I said I got over the Anime and Manga phase, some may still be enjoyable. I tend to like the style much more than the thing, itself. I like realistic anime style; therefore, I draw that way. However, I do not pay much attention to Anime, itself.

For practice, you (the audience), and whoever’s left (I wouldn’t be surprise if no one comments), can request a drawing of a video game or anime character (and series name please). I will only draw two, so first come, first serve. I will sketch it and upload it on here.

Meanwhile, I’ll try to make a new Xanga layout for this site. I will not promise a faithful return; I may not be back frequently to update, but I’ll try to keep this Xanga alive.

To be honest, it pained me a bit when I realized that I had abandoned this Xanga. I had a great time here, and I really appreciated all of those who have been by my side. Some of you know a great deal about my life and others do not. Xanga have really put my mind aside from the unfortunate events I endured everyday and occupied my boring evenings. I had never imagined that I’d leave this site during High School, but now I understand it: people become more busy and social later on in their lives.

Anyways, thanks to all of you (whoever’s left reading). For those who are still around, I just wanted to let you guys basically know that I am not completely wiped away from the internet. I am still around…

…I’m very well alive.

Good day to all and to everyone who have once subscribed to me.

You guys are the best.

(...And I will leave you with my current project:)

My Myspace:

http://www.myspace.com/AncientWhisper

My deviantArt:

http://AncientWhisper.deviantart.com/

If you want a sketch from me, (examples are all of the pics up above), you can ask for one. I will accept two (Only one left now :] ). First come, first serve. Just state the name of the character, and the series. They will not be colored. They will be pencil sketches. I accept original characters.

Again, most likely in the future, this site may be used to display some layouts and some artwork. I will most likely no longer concentrate on Xanga layouts.

Much apologies...

-Cindy

Motivation

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 21:25:58 GMT

The new Xanga set up scared me at first. Shows you how long it's been since I've actually browsed around here.

Anyway, this time, I didn't come back to apologize or make more excuses. I think I've lived long enough to make excuses... so the fact that I was away for about half a year--- I have nothing to back my reason up. I just lost interest in Xanga very quickly. Sometimes, it feels like I'm always on the edge of my seat and suddenly I... fall off? xD Well, I'd think, "Oh my god! Here I am again! Yes! I'm COMPLETELY MOTIVATED!"

*Half an hour later...*

"I'm bored. T_T"

I admit that last year wasn't really a great year. Lonely, boring, depressing... everything. Even now, it's mostly the same. At times, I'm convinced that I need to seek help or at least I need to talk to someone sometimes. Thing is, I deny help and social meetings [or in other words "hanging out" with people. LOL]. So unless someone bust through the front door of my house like the oh-so-famous Kool-Aid man, demand for a hopeless girl named "Cindy", drag said "Cindy" across the front yard and into a heavily guarded and sealed vehicle, I will live under this lonely little rock, living in your PC, stealing your internets. [Okay, so that was an internet meme. >_> I really love making Internet meme or Video Game meme references.] And no, that was not a run on sentence. You did not see what I did there...

So, to occupy myself over the course of my past life and my current life [now I definitely make no sense at all], I've been visiting DeviantArt, Myspace, and Forums everyday for hours. Oh god, the shame! The Myspace symptom got me by my hair at the beginning of school year. Because suddenly I gained like OVER 9000 friends at school [Note: Exaggeration], Myspace seemed like the alternative for IMing, Text Messaging, and Cell Phone...ing. Whenever I required help and aid for homework, or to borrow answers as you may say, I'd message people. But usually, it's the other way around--- they seek me for the answers. And mind you, I'm not really that smart--- like not a Straight-A person. Mostly just a Straight-B person. xD Or a combination of A's, B's, and C's... mostly B's. It makes me wonder why people even bother to ask my for answers. I can recall a few weeks ago, I gave away my answers to a few people [one being Hunter for those of you who were reading my other xanga], and no one got more than a FIFTY. I failed my friends and I assure you that it wasn't intentional! >.> <.<

An odd habit I have is when I visit the Complaint forums in DeviantART.com. It reminds me of an alternative 4chan sometimes. If you don't know what 4chan is, I advise you to just stay away--- don't google it--- don't ask for it--- just forget I've ever mentioned the name "4chan". Trust me, it'll save your innocence. Oh yeah, as I was saying, the Complaint forums is my source of humor and laughter. I go there sad, and end up laughing a couple of minutes later because of the smart quirky answers... or even the ones filled with stupidity. By the end of the day, I have much more knowledge about internet memes and random facts in which I use quite often at school even though no one knows what I'm talking about. Regularly, I target people who actually knows about mudkips, rickroll, and scientology with jokes and weird conversation. I can never strike up a conversation with a random friend with these facts--- they'd stare down at me and think I'm abnormal. Because what's found in the internet, stays in the internet. =D

Okay, enough of my nerdiness in video gaming and forums.

I haven't accomplished much since my last update. The one thing I would like to note is that I have beaten "FREEBIRD" on Guitar Hero 2 on Expert mode!!! When I got Guitar Hero 3, I played it very well--- so on the first try on "Freebird" after playing Guitar Hero 3, I completed it. I was amazed. Guitar Hero 3 helped my fingers go rapidly faster. On the other hand, I am stuck on "3's and 7's" and "Before I Forget" in Guitar Hero 3 on Expert. On the other hand, I can five star "Cult of Personality" on Guitar Hero 3 in Expert. I can also play "Cliff of Dovers". T_T I just want to beat those two songs and at least ATTEMPT to finish the game!!!

To support my love for Death Note over the course of last year and this year, suddenly I have all of these... Death Note merchandises. I have the DVD for the movie [it's okay], twelve volumes of Death Note [I need to get the novel and the 13th one now], an L T-Shirt, a Death Note Notebook, and a Light poster. I received all of those within two months. Funny how I don't see people getting me Cloud or Final Fantasy merchandises. Just Death Note. o_O Well, after losing interest in L, I'm beginning to like L and Light almost equally the same. But I also like Mello too because he's psychotic... I'm not really certain why I'm attracted to characters who just screams "I AM CRAZY AND HAVE ISSUES" when it comes to video games and manga. I just do. =]

School is probably one of my least favorite location to be. I dislike the work, and the classes. I only truly enjoy Advanced Web Mastering simply because someone else there is aware of the same memes and fads I know and we practically do nothing but talk all class period. Otherwise, I do not enjoy school. It's frustrating and for a lazy person such as me, it's a nightmare. I barely get enough sleep and find myself drooping my head and sealing my eyes during Algebra II lessons and Chemistry. No wonder I'm failing Algebra II. Perhaps I'm the worst Asian at Math. </insert another random Asian joke here> I personally believe my bedtime is now at one in the morning. During weekends AND school days. That's just sad. ._.

Also, Square-Enix had been pissing me off lately. As of this day and this moment, I can say that I am no longer a Kingdom Hearts fan. Because Final Mix + was never brought to America, and the next three games are to be released on PSP, DS, and Mobile Phones. The Fanboys and Fangirls who spam DeviantArt.com with Roxas and Axel Yaoi--- as well as Sora and Riku is annoying me despite the fact that I used to like seeing Sora and Riku together [not in anything sexual or Shonen-Ai]. In generally, Kingdom Hearts had made me back away from the series with shame. But still, I enjoy the games and will probably continue making layouts of it once in a while. Now... for the other thing. Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core. Oh! Thank you so much for releasing it for the PSP! For such a poor person such as me who can't really afford such a thing, I am overjoy with happiness, sunflowers, and glorious rainbows! See this smile? It's the smile of a person... who's not really satisfied with the way how almost everything I desire is released on the wrong systems I don't have. I recognize that this is more of "my" problem rather than Square-Enix's fault, but it's irritating and gives me separate different and weird heart attacks every single time a game I want is released in the wrong game system. The only game I can get is Final Fantasy XIII which is going to be on the Ps3--- well also Kingdom Hearts III, but who likes that game? ^_^ *cough*almosteveryonedoesincludingme*cough* No, I'm not in denial at all. >_> Well of course, I'm also looking forward to Metal Gear Solid 4 and many other games... plus I still need to get Devil May Cry 4. Call of Duty 4, and... all of these games that ends in "4". [No seriously, I just notice that a whole new wave of 4's are coming out or had came out. Like next game is Guitar Hero 4, Halo 4... yeahhhh.... >_<]

Speaking of Crisis Core and the number "4", I've made FOUR new layouts! With the power of tables!!! Not the ones you use to mount objects and furnitures, but HTML tables. I finally know how to make tabled layouts [actually I knew it for almost a year, but I'll just make it dramatic and say I've finally known how to do it]. I'm not sure if it actually aligns on other browsers, but I wasn't really happy with how my layouts... to put blatantly--- SUCKS on firefox. Whether it's the design, the graphics... I am not sure. Collapsing modules no longer work... the marquee that moves from the bottom to the top no longer works as well. Many things no longer work in my codings. =\ Not really good if I may add. Since more and more people are using Firefox nowadays, tabled layouts works the best so far for aligning on both browsers--- at least to my knowledge. Even though CSS is better than tabled layouts in webdesigning [and all of those claims that CSS will kill tables and XHTML is better than HTML], CSS and DIV layouts on Xanga is difficult for me to adjust to align perfectly on Firefox. I use Firefox, myself and Xanga is probably the only reason I use Internet Explorer. Maybe a few other sites which glitches up on Firefox.

Ah, I got carried away with too much information and words... here are the layouts:

Portal - Companion Cube
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core - The Legend
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Final Fantasy IV: Mystic ft. Rydia
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Death Note - Justice will Prevail
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

The Portal layout is basically a homage to the portal. And I've fallen in love with the companion cubes. I believe they are much better than the cakes... but the cake is still more popular as a fad in whole. I mean, people like lying cakes more than honest 3-D deliciously rendered cubes, AMIRITE??? [Am I right?] Crisis Core layout is just in celebration of the upcoming Final Fantasy game from the over-milked Final Fantasy VII franchise. *cough*.

Now, FINAL FANTASY IV!!! My absolute favorite oldschool Final Fantasy game, and still is. I haven't kept up with the information about the upcoming DS game, but I do know that it looks beautiful. The designs are great, and Cecil, Rydia, and Rosa impressed me with their character concept art and designs. People still aren't sure if the game is actually going to come out to the U.S, but I prefer that it does even if I don't have a DS. Because I want people to enjoy Final Fantasy IV. I even truly believe that it's better than Final Fantasy VI.

The Death Note layout is the L layout I have in my Myspace now. I love the layout to death, but I had a feeling that it'll be repetitive of me to use the same layout I have on my Myspace and my Xanga. My current layout I have on Xanga right now is the Rydia layout if you cannot tell. It's temporary--- for until god-knows-when. My previous layout lost its images. Part of me is crying in the inside because I didn't have any back up files for that specific layout. In fact, I don't have any at all. We have to save as much space in our PC for random stuff as often as we can. I end up trashing finished file in the recycling bin after uploading them. I need to stop it though, it's not really a good idea.

Anyway, enough of my blabbering. I have made many different sets of brushes over the past few months and I only have three uploaded to my DeviantART. I would appreciate it if layout designers check up on it. But what I really want is a method to transfer and make the brush files compatible to not just only Photoshop CS-- the current Photoshop version I'm using. So those who do not use Photoshop CS, and have a newer version of the program will not be able to use the brushes. I do not know how to make it compatible... but for now only those with CS or maybe even a few other version of Photoshop will be able to download and open the brush files. If you want to download the brush, go right ahead and do no hesitate to try. Maybe it'll work! Maybe it won't. If it does work, and you do end up using them for graphics--- be sure to credit back to AncientWhisper. I didn't make the brush packs for no reason.

If you like the small preview you see, click on the "DOWNLOAD" link to the left of the image.

DIGITAL RADIATION
MORNING GLOW
UNKEMPT SURFACES

I have several new textures in my textures section if you haven't visited there for the past four or five months or so. xD That really doesn't consider to be as new, but just in case. I still need to upload a few other brush packs, but for now, stay put.

I would like to thank everyone that had stayed by my side since day one of AngelxWings_FF4ever or AncientWhisper. Even to random passerby who visits my xanga. Thanks to everyone I am willing to come back once in a while instead of completely abandoning Xanga.

The reason I came back this time was all thanks to a simple post in Createblog. I didn't realize I won January's Xanga of the Month until three days ago... I know it's not really incredible because the forums were kinda dead... no offense of course. xD But when I saw it I checked the feedback of my Xanga I saw that people still visit this Xanga. Although I wasn't active and alive in this Xanga, people had kept it alive and still use my stylesheet and link to this Xanga. This... had made me happy when I was down. I wasn't happy... I was depressed and all "emo" for the past few days... but Xanga had kept me cheerful and my thoughts away from matters in my life.

So thank you Rachael and Cristy for voting me and make me check up on my own Xanga and inspiring for my return. ^_^

You guys are awesome.

Also, Sarah and Stephanie inspired me to come back too... for no apparent reason to tell the truth. O_O They just did after I visited their Xangas. xD The power of webdesign?

THANK YOU ALL!!!

BTW, visit FANGIRLxSQUEAL AND CLAIM SOMEONE RITE NAO!! >_> Before all of your favorite bishis are taken away. MUAHAHA I own Dante!![wow, now I feel like a Fangirl all over again].

I don't know why, but I feel like reintroducing myself again... [or perhaps shamelessly posting another picture of myself]. I couldn't resist because I finally got a striped long-sleeved shirt after nagging and arguing with my mother at Sears. -_- It was only $2.70!!! WHO COULD RESIST?!?! ESPECIALLY SINCE IT REMINDED ME OF MATT FROM DEATH NOTE!! GAHH!!! No, but seriously, it reminded me of the fan's choice of color for Matt's clothing. So I was like "OMG I must get a striped black and white shirt" and I finally did. After she got pissed off saying tha t it was ugly, I was able to get it... Well, off to upload that pic to Myspace ...later ... >.>

Okay, that is all.

-Cindy

Friday, October 26, 2007

Fri, 26 Oct 2007 00:06:21 GMT

Cancellations, Forgiveness, and Ancient Whisper

NOTE: This is an old layout from two years ago. I'm reusing it because it looks nice, and I needed a break from seeing my current layout. Inspire Me has been on this site for over half a year. xD

It's been months after months since I have ever updated here. I apologize from the bottom of my heart to all those who awaited me for the contest, for new layouts, and updates.

I've stalled for far too long, and by the time I realized I needed to return, my outlooks, views, hobbies, and certain other aspects have been changed in my life.

I DO plan on still running Ancient Whisper, and I thank everyone that still visits and awaits or watches me. It is amazing; week after week I look at the feedback of this xanga, and people are still subscribing and viewing my page. I admit that I was about to give up during the summer because I expected that people would have forgotten about me, but no one has. So I must thank, again, to all those who stood beside me.

Obviously, for many different reasons, the contest was canceled [if you haven't figured out that during my absence.]. There are many different reasonings behind why it's canceled, one of them being very important to me: the copyright of the images. Many people chose fanarts for the layouts, and I didn't know how to go on working with images without any credits. But perhaps the real reason may be because of my laziness, and my sudden lack of interest for web designing.

Over my absence, many people have asked for my return, but the one that really helped me into thinking about it was someone I met at school who was a fan of me before I even know that person [it was awkward though. I was like, "I have a Xanga layout site called AncientWhisper". And the person was like, "OMG!". It was during Advanced Webmastering class.]. So thank you for that [if you're reading.].

I've made more appearances on other locations as I was away from AncientWhisper; I was also frequently updating EsotericMemoir, my alternative or more personal Xanga, on deviantArt [http://ancientwhisper.deviantart.com/] , and Myspace.

Now, as for the present, the reason for my long hiatus is also because I am literally floored with homework from school. [I'm a Sophomore now, taking all honors and Pre-AP classes I can]. I am also taking Advanced Webmastering class, hoping to improve on CSS and HTML and hopefully/successfully obtain a domain and start working on codings outside of xanga. [Although I need a web host first....].

My future plans for the expansion of Ancient Whisper, is to write more tutorials on the basic understanding of codings, photoshop tutorials, and anything I can do to help others. I've noticed that my layout tutorial was a huge success, and because of it, many people are now also as or more successful with their layouts than mines. I hope to expand and support other people to design layouts to help those who couldn't. =] So basically, I believe in making Ancient Whisper not only a layout site, but a good tutorial one too. I will be revising some of the past tutorials.

Thank you, again, to everyone who had closely watched me by; I know that some of you are very mad, upset, annoyed, or disappointed at me... I do not blame those who feels that way. I just hope that you'll forgive me. =] Maybe no one even comes here much anymore--- I'm not that so certain. Hahahahaha!!! xD

I made this a lonnnnggg time ago as I attempted to get back into Xanga. But as a small little gift; if you feel like using it [because it's my fanart, and it's not that great. xD]. Here's a KH2 Roxas layout. =]

CLICK HERE TO SEE THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Also, an MS Paint tutorial from long ago on how to apply textures on the paint program for those who does not have photoshop, gimp, Paintshop Pro, or other programs.. =]

http://www.xanga.com/RealitysIllusion/606600782/item.html

Anyway, comment if you feel free to; I'll get back to everyone if anyone have any questions or anything.

Again, please forgive me. T_T

EDITTT:::
New Layout featuring the game, Folklore. =D

CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Enjoy. =]
-Cindy

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 20:34:56 GMT

I'm still alive, don't worry! I will be back after this long, long, hiatus and figure the contest out. [I'm doing extra things to it.] Also, school's been frustrating.... -_- Just a Xanga break, but I have not left. =D

Jocker

Jocker. I have nothing to say, but go ahead and take a look. The person called me out that "I don't have a life" and to "STFU". Amazing and ironically, she backed up that friend of hers and didn't even apologize. Kids... they never get what plagiarism is. Wow, how surprising. </sarcasm>

http://pic4.piczo.com/evilmadkakashi/

Click on the entry banner to view the Bleach layout. Please, no threats and no harassing. Just spread the word of what "plagiarism" means.

P.S. I usually never expose jockers unless they personally took the time to replace credits and redistribute them. Mad did that. Usually, I'd have a guilt problem for doing this--- but today, I'm not holding back.

-Cindy

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 22:10:33 GMT

<--Tuesday, February 13th, 2007-->

Inspire Me Contest

Participants: Must be Subscribed. [Not subscribed? Why not do it now? Click on Graphics and Layouts, and select "Subscribe".]
Contest Length: 15 days. Next Update [May be altered in the near future.]
Entries: 3 layout description.
Description: I have inspired many people to design their own layouts, purchase[coughdownloadcough] photoshop, heck, even to steal my layouts. O.O Now, it's YOUR turn to inspire me! Give a distinct description of a layout that you've always desired. The more details, the better! But that's not all! To improve your chances of winning--- just in case if your first layout wasn't creative enough, you can enter up to two more different layout descriptions!!! Therefore, as a winner, you can win more than just one of your layout!! So get writing, and inspire me. Here's a quick head start to get you thinking:

Layout title: [Title of the layout.]
Quotes: [Any text floating on the banner.]
Images: [Maximum of FOUR images. One main image, and three secondary images. Minimum of one image.]
Alignment: [left or right? Center prohibited.]
Saturation: [Dark, Neutral, Hazy, Bright?]
Colors: [At most, THREE colors]
Style: [Grunge, Tech, Dreamy etc.?]
Navigation: [cascading modules? animated links? background image? NONE?]
Blog: [borders? background image?]
Other: [Other things you would like to add like whether or not to repeat the background, or only repeat it once in the y-axis, or a section on the banner for news etc.]

[PLEASE, the more details, the better!!! So try your hardest!]

Remember, it must be POSSIBLE for me to design. I don't have Flash, and I can't design any Website layouts. Only Xanga and Myspace!!! Good-luck!
Winners Determined: After submission is over, a voting session will begin! NO CHEATING!!!
Consequences: If found cheated, submitter will be disqualified. Future contests will be held back from submitter. Cheating includes [but is not limited to]: advertising and bribing others to vote for oneself and creating multiple accounts to vote.

Prizes:

1st place: Winner can personally pick TWO out of THREE of the layouts they've "designed"; layouts will be made personally by me.
2nd place: Winner can personally pick ONE out of THREE of the layouts they've "designed"; layouts will be made personally by me.
3rd place: Winner gets a booby prize! ;]

-There are FIVE other possible booby prizes that will be given to random contestants; I will not state how to acquire the booby prizes, so just try your hardest to get first place rather than the booby prizes!-

((AnGeL x WiNgS))The following contest goes with my new layout, featuring Yuna in "Inspire Me!" I was looking for a new style, and I decided to do it like this. =D I hope you guys enjoy it! Nothing new, but I'll be working on a few layouts [Andrew, don't worry, I didn't forget about your Myspace layout!!! ^_^] Also, this is just to spice up xanga, so everyone's invited. There are no rules in order to enter aside from subscribing. =D I encourage EVERYONE that visits to participate in this contest, make it enjoyable--- and you can win up to two layouts that you can request!!! So go out there and break a leg--- literally!! [just kidding...]

Special thanks for IceWolf13 for the beautiful link so I could host my music freely since FileLodge.com is down. Thank you! [I apologize if I can't recognize you on Xanga--- I really don't know who's who on Myspace.]

Not much of an update, but a lot of projects and homework this week--- so I guess I'll leave right here---- so enter the contest, if you already can make layouts, you can design your own contest as well. I've seen many people copied my last idea from the last contest, but I guess it's fine to me. I would encourage you guys to do something else though--- so xanga won't be as lonely and small. =D

EDIT///

I feel responsible. I don't know why, but this is happening over and over again. Several days ago, I left the person a comment, since he/she [I'll just say he] took Passionate Sanctuary Kingdom Hearts layout, cut the image of Sora out, and call it an extracted image. I nicely asked him to take it off, but to my surprise, he shut his site down. Why? I don't get it. Is it cowardice? Is it guilt? I'm not dissing him, and I'm not pressuring, I even apologized that I had to ask him to take the extracted image down. One of the worst thing a person could do when I confront the person is to shut his or her site down. Why do I hate that option the most?

They didn't apologize, therefore, our problem will never truely be solved. In my mind, I'm thinking "Run away from the problem!!! I'm not wrong, I'm sorry I got caught!" I'm not a threat--- and I've noticed that about 80% of the people I confront for jocking or taking images just completely stops and shut down without a word. It's ridiculous.

Anyway, I'll just leave it right here. People surprises me everyday. >_<

Love you all, and Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

EDITTT::::::::::
Still accepting late entries. ^_^ You have until I make my next update [which should be somewhere during Spring break, by then I will finish everything I have said I'd be doing].

-Cindy

Monday, February 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 23:06:06 GMT

<--Sunday, February 5th, 2007--> ((AnGeL x WiNgS)) I'm back everyone! I'm recently lost my photoshop, or that was what I was brought to believe. Turns out when we lent our cousin our Photoshop CD, he never gave it back. But all's swell, because my brother retrieve it. Now I can finally relax! [sorry guys, I'm not the type of person that would get Photoshop out of Limewire.LOL. Music? Sometimes. Photoshop/ other expensive illegal stuff? Probably not...] So "yay" for me!!!!

Okay, today, I'll start with my SITE UPDATES! Yup, instead of putting things about my life, [yeah, I know you guys don't really care that much, but thanks to all that do], today, I'm gonna just talk about what's going on.

I've always wanted a website, like I've stated. What? No, I don't have one yet. xD But anyway, I don't think I'm ready, although I would get one. Xanga is a handful, and I don't want to leave Xanga for a website--- Xanga's almost empty, so I rather be here. Maybe during the summer when I have a lot of time, and a lot of more understanding with XHTML. Anyway, I was ASTONISHED when I found out the Blogring.net links weren't working for the codes! [I've literally abandoned Blogring.. I know, I'm sorry that I did. I really am. It's one of the worst decisions I've ever made...But it's too late. Plus I don't have much time...] So yesterday I worked hard to put the codes on my layout coding site. Also, I thought most people would know how to use View Source and yeahhh.... I was surprised many people have commented saying "I can't find the code, helllllppp."

So my apologies to everyone.

All of the coding pages work now. ^_^

Hey, but next time, tell me on this blog. I almost never read the comments on RealitysIllusion/Layouts/ subpages. I'm also about to make a texture page, and I will be putting the textures I've made on there, for everyone to use to blend in photoshop [although of course, CREDIT IS REQUIRED!]. Hmm... what else? Oh yeah, the script I use for certain part of the codes are trashed! Xanga probably disable the kind of javascript. ARGH. Then I had to go and fix all of my other codes--- so any of you that have started to use my recent layout, the new codes are back at where you found the codes. I've also LOST a few layouts, and I will be renovating some of them, but some of my layout lost their images even though they were hosted in imageshack. O_O Shame on Imageshack!!! That means some of my layouts are FULLY screwed. So they're lost forever.

I've lost many things because we had to unfortunately reboot our PC which crashed and wouldn't load properly. So all of the layouts I was working on--- was gone. Not only that, like my past Ashe layout... is gone. So I'll try to find a way to fix a few things. The only good news is the fact that I finally got rid of things that I couldn't bare to let go of, but I should.

NEW POLL!!! Go and Vote my buddies!!!

Ah, yes, probably the most looked forward section, I do have new layouts! They aren't much, but I'll be working hard this month to restore all of the layouts I haven't been doing from like around Fall of last year. I've been slacking off--- but now, I'm working harder. Even with school work. Because I want to pass. =D The three layouts--- one anime, one random video game, and one Final Fantasy. They are Ah! My Goddess!, Okami, and Final Fantasy IX. I always liked Final Fantasy IX, but never made a good layout of it [I also lost one of the FFIX layout because the image was broken]. So I thought I'll make up for it. The Ah! My Goddess! was for Nicole-y for her late birthday present! The Okami one was random, and note I've never played the game before, but yet, I made one. O_O But I love it, just check them all out!!!

Ah! My Goddess Layout:
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Final Fantasy IX Layout:
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Okami Layout:
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Enjoy them all!!

Not much has been happening in my life--- and if you'd like to know what's REALLY happening behind closed curtains/ websites/ things it's at my alternative xanga. Of course, you have to befriend me, but yeah. If I DON'T befriend you, then it's probably because: I think you're suspicious, I don't know you, I can't recognize you no matter how hard I try, or I haven't been on for a while.

So, as a summary: Life's actually been pretty a downfall. Half of the time at school I'm thinking and talking to myself, and every movement I make, I bust out in my thought with "What the hell was I THINKING?!!?!". Then every word I say, I tell myself, "What the hell was I SAYING?! I sound pathetic and stupid/retarded." But other than that, things have been fine... other than the fact part of me want to get away from this school. I haven't really gotten along with much people, although I'm trying, maybe I just don't fit into this school. Well, enough about that--- school's been uber hard. However, one of my greatest accomplishment in my life was last week.

We were given a week to do a research project on two Health Aid groups, present, and compare them in Geography class. We were also allowed to pair up with someone. Me being incredibly independent, I didn't even bother. We were supposed to use a poster board, or at least a visual that is "WOW-able" to impress the teacher and get a good grade. Turns out, my procrastination got the best of me, and I didn't start the project until the DAY BEFORE the project was due. Not only that, I had no poster board. So that night, I grabbed two Hurricane relief Aids, and their information. I print out all of the things I need to say during the presentation [2 pages total], and I started to play Guitar Hero 2.

What the...? Yeah, I played Guitar Hero 2. Why? I have no idea. I was so lazy, that I didn't even BOTHER to try doing a visual. I ended up not doing it. I was ready to take a zero the next day, but I got a BRILLIANT plan. I was going to do it--- the day it was due! So I went to school as normal, and my first "A" class was Art for A1. I finished my drawings [now I'm thankful I'm good at drawing], and I rushed through all of my work. After I was done, I had 20 minutes left so I gave out an excited "YES!" and grabbed a piece of paper and started to draw my VISUAL for the project. Just then, the art teacher [or coach, because he's a coach], told me to help people that needed help. My mind went blank as I told myself "OH SHIeT! I can't do this!!! Why?! Now I can't do the visual... T_T".

By the time I finished helping people the bell was about to ring, and I knew I had no time to draw, so instead I studied the two pages I printed out the night before. The next class was the Geography class--- where the project was due. I was the first person to come in [I'm always the first person], and once I got in there, I hastily grabbed the white sheet of paper and started to draw on it. I drew and drew... for like 10 minutes, and then the outcome was a lady giving these kids some water [hence, Hurricane Relief]. By the time I was finished with my drawing, people were already doing their presentation. Luckily, the teacher ALMOST forgot about me, so I was the last to be called to present. I went up there, looked at the paper only like twice throughout the whole presentation, made up stuff about the Relief aids, and kept on repeating myself with different words to take up time. My teacher was so impressed of me, and she took up my drawing and told me to hang it up on the wall too because she said it was beautiful. O_O

So all's well, when I figured I broke the record of completing a project. I STARTED completed it the DAY it was DUE in about 25 minutes of drawing and studying. Not only that, I got 100, and she hung my picture on the wall. I think that's utterly amazing. Considering she gave me a week, and I could have had a partner.

Sorry for rambling, but that has got to be the best accomplishment I've ever done. xD I'm so shy too, I'm surprised I stood up there barely looking at my paper for information, and just repeated the same things and got a hundred.... Me and my laziness.

We're about to move soon--- the house is expected to be done by April! [or so said my cousin, but I believe it]. I can't wait!!! I would drool. O_O I have no idea why I would, but still. I couldn't wait. ^_^ The street is pretty nice too! It's "Honey Hill". xD I like that name. Oddly reminds me of Hunny from Ouran High School Host Club. It sounds so sweet and calm too.

Ah! Deviantart and pictures of me... they will be coming sometime later. I don't have much time for pictures now [I WOULD, if the webcam was better!!! O_O Or if I have a scanner for my drawings. T_T]

Anyway, I hope you guys have had a great year and great things have been happening. I know I rarely ever appear around, but I know most of you guys don't mind [if you do, then I'm terribly sorry]. Yup! I've been drinking Orange Soda. Otherwise, I'll sound more depressed. Ahahahahahaha... Love you all!!

EDIT!!!!!!!!!////////
I made a texture page!!!

Here's an example!

Click here to view the Texture Page!
[I'm not done yet! I'll add more tomorrow!]

-Cindy

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 03:42:08 GMT

<--Saturday: January 20th, 2006-->

Just hold on a little longer guys. I have to reboot my PC like a week ago, and I'm Photoshopless. I can't find my Photoshop disc too... T_T I wonder where it had gone.

I apologize once again. I was working on a Guitar Hero layout, so there you go, spoiled! However, my file is lost because I had to reboot... it freakin' sucks. T_T

UPDATE:

I've finally gotten my Photoshop back. Turns out my cousin had it all along. *sigh* But don't worry. I'm working on NEW layouts LIKE CRAZY. Expect massive updates soon. Thanks for all those who waited!

P.S::: I've editted all the layouts which suddenly turned wacked--- including mines. It has to do with coding problems. If your layout looks really funky, copy the new codes from the AxW_LayoutCodes, I edited the codes. ^_^

-Cindy

Monday, December 25, 2006

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 17:18:29 GMT

<--Christmas:Monday, 25th, 2006--> ((AnGeL x WiNgS)) Hey Hey HEY!! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!! I hope everyone's enjoying their wonderful Christmas. Although I don't celebrate it, I think it's a holiday for all to enjoy. Finally, I/my brother own and share a webcam, so I decided to post pics of myself. Take notice, that I'm very very paranoid. O_O So I put my links on all of my pictures. I've also decided to show you guys my artwork and my drawings!!!

Christmas has been okay so far. This morning I woke up and started to work on the webcam. It was hard, and the webcam was so annoying. I couldn't work it. Eventually I realized that it only takes picture with light visual. The room wasn't dark, but I guess it wasn't bright enough either. After taking like twenty pictures, I found three good ones and decided to use them. Soon after eating pancakes, I took picture of my drawings too!!!

My life has been very depressing, if you want to know, just read my personal xanga. I don't feel like posting the link again, it's a one time deal, but just go there if you want to know more. Later on, I will probably make it private for only a variety of people to read, so just take advantage of it, while most of the blogs are still public. xD Anyway, Saturday was a blast hanging out with my friends, I got the Cloud plush purse thingy [Ahahahaha...], and I got the Advent Children Keychain. Also, the Cloud wallscroll!! AHH!!! It's not that pretty, but actually it is. [contridicting? What am I saying?!]. It spices up my lame room, with all of those.... kiddy things. I still feel like a kid. Anyway, it was with my own money [except for the keychains, thanks Simin!] and I got them from Ebay. May I tell you, Ebay is so addicting! It's flucking crazy!

It's so great to see everyone though, and it felt aweeesoommee. I've also lent one of my friends [Panda] my FFX. I'll be missing it until it comes back to me. ;_; Oh well, still got FFXII. I've been playing that recently, too. I've just defeated the first match of Gilgamesh, and I was getting all hyper last night because of the music from FFV. I was like "It brings back old memories!" *tear* Last night, we were also supposed to attend this wedding party, but it wouldn't make much sense since no one was off, but my brother and I. Plus, we didn't want to go. Only my mom wanted to. In the end, she got sad because we outmatched her by saying how depressing it will be at the wedding. It's very quite true though. I don't know anyone there. The last time I attended a wedding OR a party, it was so lame.

Brief summary of my life: It's very depressing. There's no one in school to get along with, it's just bleh. Hopefully, next semester will be much better. HOPEFULLY. Also, to clear this up: I go to a preppy school. A VERY preppy school called Naaman Forest. Trust me, it's hard to make friends there, when you're not a prep yourself. I can't really commute with the preps, and the goths aren't my type. I wouldn't even talk about the nerds. I hate most of the annoying nerds. Then there are the nice nerds--- who are a little bit blah and odd on the side. It's just hard to be there. Seriously. You know something's wrong, when a prep is calling another prep a "prep." O_O I secretly thought to myself, "But wait, you're a prep yourself!" Nah, don't get me wrong, I don't hate preps. The nice ones are pretty cool. It's just that we have nothing in common. I would talk about Anime and Video Games and other stuff. They would talk about a show.... hot guys... and malls. Ermm... not really what I'd talk about.

Anyway, enough about this, I only made on layout, and also an Aeris Wallpaper, which I will attach to this post shortly. And so forth, let's bring on the pictures!!!

*Excited. Finally, I can post some on Myspace too...*
But here's the three good pics of me I can whip up. The lighting isn't good, and I did it right beside the computer leaning towards the light. I almost fell on the computer. =_= Anyway, yes, very paranoid about my pictures... I don't want anyone to steal them--- especially my artwork!!! I only edited the lighting because it was so pink/purple. ARGH webcam isn't that great. =[

Peace Sign!!!

Eviilll xD

Okay, now my drawings!! I am very paranoid about these, if you steal, I will fucking kill you. There you go, I used a real threat. I am serious. So don't try. -_-

Beautiful Cloud [drawn a year ago]:

Forever ft. Roxas and Friends [OMG, I LOVE THIS PIC! However, I couldn't really focus the camera, so I just took a small picture]:

Syne [my Fanfic character] with Ouran High School Host Club outfit!

Kode, my beautiful hot guy from my fanfiction:

Beautiful Sephiroth:

Another Beautiful Sephiroth drawn about 2 years ago:

Wander from Shadow of the Colossus fighting Colossi number 4!! Drawn months ago:

I hope you guys enjoyed it! Most of the pictures take hours so yeah... >_> It's hard using normal erasers [although I've recently bought two gummy erasers], and using normal pencils instead of ones with sharp lead. I never use mechanical unless I'm darking dark lines. I shade and draw with pencils first. =D Anyway, just one layout made, and it features Sora!

CLICK HERE TO VIEW FAR AWAY!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Ahh... anyway, yet again, Merry Christmas to all, and I hope you have a wonderful year. Happy early New Years as well. ^_^ I am very thankful for everyone's support, and being able to have a great year with everyone. Thanks!!!

EDIT:

Hey everyone! I have the Aerith Wallpaper now. And I'm sorry for those that looks forward to my pics on Myspace, haven't put them up yet. BTW, there aren't any new ones. Don't feel like taking any new pics. LOL xD But when I have free time or when I get a hair-cut [my hair is poofy at times...], I will probably take a pic afterwards. Til then, here's the wallpaper!!!

EDITTTT!!!

Go to my Myspace. I have pictures of my room and stuff. Random pictures of the day. xD Don't forget to sign-on, and if you don't have a myspace, that's okay--- you'll sign-up for one someday, right? I will be posting more pictures of myself when I have time, and I will probably get a deviantArt account. Because everyone kept telling me to! O_O

EDITTTTT!!!!
Some of you guys might have been there before--- my deviantart. I've had it for over a year now, but never managed to do anything with it. Well I finally did! Tomorrow I'll take more pics of my drawings and put it on. Now it's too dark and the stupid web-cam will djifaojdia up. >_<

DEVIANTART HERE!!!

Happy Holidays,
-Cindy

Monday, December 25, 2006

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 00:03:13 GMT

<--Happy Christmas Eve!-->
Updating tomorrow--- and finally, I have a webcam! I'll try to post a pic of me up here, and you will find pics of my stuff/drawings tomorrow on too. =D

I will also have layouts up tomorrow.

Just a foreshadowing to this story. =]

-Cindy

Monday, November 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 03:09:54 GMT

((AnGeL x WiNgS))New layout featuring Aerith! Special Thanks and Inspiration from Zephyr, who inspired me to make an Aerith layout because I've always liked her but never got the chance to make a good layout with her by herself. Thanksgiving break--- I'll be getting to everyone's contest reward! I apologize for the harsh delay. I didn't know being in Honors class would be so difficult. =[ I'll be writing more in a week or some time. I have a poll up! It's on the poll section on my modules. Please vote! I need to know what I'm lacking. I think I'm lacking all of the above except for the last one. Man, I feel so pitiful. Sometimes I believe that everyone on Xanga hates me. That's why I've been avoiding it for some time. And you guys may, or may not. Because I've been inactive, I must be a pain. Well, I just want to apologize to everyone. I don't want to turn into someone that's ignorant, but I must appear like that. *sigh*

I have a jocker. I'm keeping a watch on her, before I post it. She's such a... ARGH. I HATE HER SO MUCH!!! Jockers are the reason I want to become inactive. I've started to be inactive because of jockers. What a shame! I don't put my blame on them, but I can't help but to feel they're actually the reason why I'm like this now. It pisses me off. If I can take a lighter and throw it through my PC screen and burn their PC down, I will[or house for that matter]. Okay, maybe I'm not that cruel. But I would love to greet them with my fist.

Then there's EVERYONE leaving. Everyone. It's mental and crazy. I can't stand it. And some of them are leaving for Myspace--- like what?! =_=

The world is crazy these days, really. Sometimes I feel as if I'm going mental because of them. I need to burn off some steam.

BTW, FFXII is crazy fun, but crazy hard. However, it appears it that it won't be my favorite. =[

I want Okami. >.>

My layout is still a little messed up, but please don't mind! I don't have the time now. >_<

FIX'D!

EDIT:

Am I really that stupid? >_< I forgot to mention I made a tutorial for everyone who doesn't have Photoshop or any special art program. So if you just have Paint, you can still make layouts that look decent [obviously that near the best, but it even looks BETTER than most newbies on Photoshop!]

CLICK!

Thank you so much Hisaki, for reminding me of everyone and what everyone needs. I should start the Myspace tutorial now, that's the last one I have in mind. Til then, I'm glad to have helped everyone!!! ^_^

EDIT:

New Balthier Layout:

CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Enjoy. =D

EDIT:

New Paint tutorial! Made just for Blending. =D You can now learn how to blend images [cheaply], and it looks nice, although you can't blend the edges, you have to blend the whole image.

CLICK!

ENJOY!!! [I'm being productive this week...]

EDIT:

New Cloud Layout:

CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!!!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!

Yes, I'm being very productive--- and getting very tired--- but happy that I finished the Cloud layout. ROFL!!!

-Cindy