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Motivation| | The new Xanga set up scared me at first. Shows you how long it's been since I've actually browsed around here.
Anyway, this time, I didn't come back to apologize or make more excuses. I think I've lived long enough to make excuses... so the fact that I was away for about half a year--- I have nothing to back my reason up. I just lost interest in Xanga very quickly. Sometimes, it feels like I'm always on the edge of my seat and suddenly I... fall off? xD Well, I'd think, "Oh my god! Here I am again! Yes! I'm COMPLETELY MOTIVATED!"
*Half an hour later...*
"I'm bored. T_T"
I admit that last year wasn't really a great year. Lonely, boring, depressing... everything. Even now, it's mostly the same. At times, I'm convinced that I need to seek help or at least I need to talk to someone sometimes. Thing is, I deny help and social meetings [or in other words "hanging out" with people. LOL]. So unless someone bust through the front door of my house like the oh-so-famous Kool-Aid man, demand for a hopeless girl named "Cindy", drag said "Cindy" across the front yard and into a heavily guarded and sealed vehicle, I will live under this lonely little rock, living in your PC, stealing your internets. [Okay, so that was an internet meme. >_> I really love making Internet meme or Video Game meme references.] And no, that was not a run on sentence. You did not see what I did there...
So, to occupy myself over the course of my past life and my current life [now I definitely make no sense at all], I've been visiting DeviantArt, Myspace, and Forums everyday for hours. Oh god, the shame! The Myspace symptom got me by my hair at the beginning of school year. Because suddenly I gained like OVER 9000 friends at school [Note: Exaggeration], Myspace seemed like the alternative for IMing, Text Messaging, and Cell Phone...ing. Whenever I required help and aid for homework, or to borrow answers as you may say, I'd message people. But usually, it's the other way around--- they seek me for the answers. And mind you, I'm not really that smart--- like not a Straight-A person. Mostly just a Straight-B person. xD Or a combination of A's, B's, and C's... mostly B's. It makes me wonder why people even bother to ask my for answers. I can recall a few weeks ago, I gave away my answers to a few people [one being Hunter for those of you who were reading my other xanga], and no one got more than a FIFTY. I failed my friends and I assure you that it wasn't intentional! >.> <.<
An odd habit I have is when I visit the Complaint forums in DeviantART.com. It reminds me of an alternative 4chan sometimes. If you don't know what 4chan is, I advise you to just stay away--- don't google it--- don't ask for it--- just forget I've ever mentioned the name "4chan". Trust me, it'll save your innocence. Oh yeah, as I was saying, the Complaint forums is my source of humor and laughter. I go there sad, and end up laughing a couple of minutes later because of the smart quirky answers... or even the ones filled with stupidity. By the end of the day, I have much more knowledge about internet memes and random facts in which I use quite often at school even though no one knows what I'm talking about. Regularly, I target people who actually knows about mudkips, rickroll, and scientology with jokes and weird conversation. I can never strike up a conversation with a random friend with these facts--- they'd stare down at me and think I'm abnormal. Because what's found in the internet, stays in the internet. =D
Okay, enough of my nerdiness in video gaming and forums.
I haven't accomplished much since my last update. The one thing I would like to note is that I have beaten "FREEBIRD" on Guitar Hero 2 on Expert mode!!! When I got Guitar Hero 3, I played it very well--- so on the first try on "Freebird" after playing Guitar Hero 3, I completed it. I was amazed. Guitar Hero 3 helped my fingers go rapidly faster. On the other hand, I am stuck on "3's and 7's" and "Before I Forget" in Guitar Hero 3 on Expert. On the other hand, I can five star "Cult of Personality" on Guitar Hero 3 in Expert. I can also play "Cliff of Dovers". T_T I just want to beat those two songs and at least ATTEMPT to finish the game!!!
To support my love for Death Note over the course of last year and this year, suddenly I have all of these... Death Note merchandises. I have the DVD for the movie [it's okay], twelve volumes of Death Note [I need to get the novel and the 13th one now], an L T-Shirt, a Death Note Notebook, and a Light poster. I received all of those within two months. Funny how I don't see people getting me Cloud or Final Fantasy merchandises. Just Death Note. o_O Well, after losing interest in L, I'm beginning to like L and Light almost equally the same. But I also like Mello too because he's psychotic... I'm not really certain why I'm attracted to characters who just screams "I AM CRAZY AND HAVE ISSUES" when it comes to video games and manga. I just do. =]
School is probably one of my least favorite location to be. I dislike the work, and the classes. I only truly enjoy Advanced Web Mastering simply because someone else there is aware of the same memes and fads I know and we practically do nothing but talk all class period. Otherwise, I do not enjoy school. It's frustrating and for a lazy person such as me, it's a nightmare. I barely get enough sleep and find myself drooping my head and sealing my eyes during Algebra II lessons and Chemistry. No wonder I'm failing Algebra II. Perhaps I'm the worst Asian at Math. </insert another random Asian joke here> I personally believe my bedtime is now at one in the morning. During weekends AND school days. That's just sad. ._.
Also, Square-Enix had been pissing me off lately. As of this day and this moment, I can say that I am no longer a Kingdom Hearts fan. Because Final Mix + was never brought to America, and the next three games are to be released on PSP, DS, and Mobile Phones. The Fanboys and Fangirls who spam DeviantArt.com with Roxas and Axel Yaoi--- as well as Sora and Riku is annoying me despite the fact that I used to like seeing Sora and Riku together [not in anything sexual or Shonen-Ai]. In generally, Kingdom Hearts had made me back away from the series with shame. But still, I enjoy the games and will probably continue making layouts of it once in a while. Now... for the other thing. Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core. Oh! Thank you so much for releasing it for the PSP! For such a poor person such as me who can't really afford such a thing, I am overjoy with happiness, sunflowers, and glorious rainbows! See this smile? It's the smile of a person... who's not really satisfied with the way how almost everything I desire is released on the wrong systems I don't have. I recognize that this is more of "my" problem rather than Square-Enix's fault, but it's irritating and gives me separate different and weird heart attacks every single time a game I want is released in the wrong game system. The only game I can get is Final Fantasy XIII which is going to be on the Ps3--- well also Kingdom Hearts III, but who likes that game? ^_^ *cough*almosteveryonedoesincludingme*cough* No, I'm not in denial at all. >_> Well of course, I'm also looking forward to Metal Gear Solid 4 and many other games... plus I still need to get Devil May Cry 4. Call of Duty 4, and... all of these games that ends in "4". [No seriously, I just notice that a whole new wave of 4's are coming out or had came out. Like next game is Guitar Hero 4, Halo 4... yeahhhh.... >_<]
Speaking of Crisis Core and the number "4", I've made FOUR new layouts! With the power of tables!!! Not the ones you use to mount objects and furnitures, but HTML tables. I finally know how to make tabled layouts [actually I knew it for almost a year, but I'll just make it dramatic and say I've finally known how to do it]. I'm not sure if it actually aligns on other browsers, but I wasn't really happy with how my layouts... to put blatantly--- SUCKS on firefox. Whether it's the design, the graphics... I am not sure. Collapsing modules no longer work... the marquee that moves from the bottom to the top no longer works as well. Many things no longer work in my codings. =\ Not really good if I may add. Since more and more people are using Firefox nowadays, tabled layouts works the best so far for aligning on both browsers--- at least to my knowledge. Even though CSS is better than tabled layouts in webdesigning [and all of those claims that CSS will kill tables and XHTML is better than HTML], CSS and DIV layouts on Xanga is difficult for me to adjust to align perfectly on Firefox. I use Firefox, myself and Xanga is probably the only reason I use Internet Explorer. Maybe a few other sites which glitches up on Firefox.
Ah, I got carried away with too much information and words... here are the layouts:
Portal - Companion Cube
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!
Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core - The Legend
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!
Final Fantasy IV: Mystic ft. Rydia
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!
Death Note - Justice will Prevail
CLICK HERE TO VIEW THE LAYOUT!
CLICK HERE TO GET THE CODES!!!
The Portal layout is basically a homage to the portal. And I've fallen in love with the companion cubes. I believe they are much better than the cakes... but the cake is still more popular as a fad in whole. I mean, people like lying cakes more than honest 3-D deliciously rendered cubes, AMIRITE??? [Am I right?] Crisis Core layout is just in celebration of the upcoming Final Fantasy game from the over-milked Final Fantasy VII franchise. *cough*.
Now, FINAL FANTASY IV!!! My absolute favorite oldschool Final Fantasy game, and still is. I haven't kept up with the information about the upcoming DS game, but I do know that it looks beautiful. The designs are great, and Cecil, Rydia, and Rosa impressed me with their character concept art and designs. People still aren't sure if the game is actually going to come out to the U.S, but I prefer that it does even if I don't have a DS. Because I want people to enjoy Final Fantasy IV. I even truly believe that it's better than Final Fantasy VI.
The Death Note layout is the L layout I have in my Myspace now. I love the layout to death, but I had a feeling that it'll be repetitive of me to use the same layout I have on my Myspace and my Xanga. My current layout I have on Xanga right now is the Rydia layout if you cannot tell. It's temporary--- for until god-knows-when. My previous layout lost its images. Part of me is crying in the inside because I didn't have any back up files for that specific layout. In fact, I don't have any at all. We have to save as much space in our PC for random stuff as often as we can. I end up trashing finished file in the recycling bin after uploading them. I need to stop it though, it's not really a good idea.
Anyway, enough of my blabbering. I have made many different sets of brushes over the past few months and I only have three uploaded to my DeviantART. I would appreciate it if layout designers check up on it. But what I really want is a method to transfer and make the brush files compatible to not just only Photoshop CS-- the current Photoshop version I'm using. So those who do not use Photoshop CS, and have a newer version of the program will not be able to use the brushes. I do not know how to make it compatible... but for now only those with CS or maybe even a few other version of Photoshop will be able to download and open the brush files. If you want to download the brush, go right ahead and do no hesitate to try. Maybe it'll work! Maybe it won't. If it does work, and you do end up using them for graphics--- be sure to credit back to AncientWhisper. I didn't make the brush packs for no reason.
If you like the small preview you see, click on the "DOWNLOAD" link to the left of the image.
DIGITAL RADIATION
MORNING GLOW
UNKEMPT SURFACES
I have several new textures in my textures section if you haven't visited there for the past four or five months or so. xD That really doesn't consider to be as new, but just in case. I still need to upload a few other brush packs, but for now, stay put.
I would like to thank everyone that had stayed by my side since day one of AngelxWings_FF4ever or AncientWhisper. Even to random passerby who visits my xanga. Thanks to everyone I am willing to come back once in a while instead of completely abandoning Xanga.
The reason I came back this time was all thanks to a simple post in Createblog. I didn't realize I won January's Xanga of the Month until three days ago... I know it's not really incredible because the forums were kinda dead... no offense of course. xD But when I saw it I checked the feedback of my Xanga I saw that people still visit this Xanga. Although I wasn't active and alive in this Xanga, people had kept it alive and still use my stylesheet and link to this Xanga. This... had made me happy when I was down. I wasn't happy... I was depressed and all "emo" for the past few days... but Xanga had kept me cheerful and my thoughts away from matters in my life.
So thank you Rachael and Cristy for voting me and make me check up on my own Xanga and inspiring for my return. ^_^
You guys are awesome.
Also, Sarah and Stephanie inspired me to come back too... for no apparent reason to tell the truth. O_O They just did after I visited their Xangas. xD The power of webdesign?
THANK YOU ALL!!!
BTW, visit FANGIRLxSQUEAL AND CLAIM SOMEONE RITE NAO!! >_> Before all of your favorite bishis are taken away. MUAHAHA I own Dante!![wow, now I feel like a Fangirl all over again].
 I don't know why, but I feel like reintroducing myself again... [or perhaps shamelessly posting another picture of myself]. I couldn't resist because I finally got a striped long-sleeved shirt after nagging and arguing with my mother at Sears. -_- It was only $2.70!!! WHO COULD RESIST?!?! ESPECIALLY SINCE IT REMINDED ME OF MATT FROM DEATH NOTE!! GAHH!!! No, but seriously, it reminded me of the fan's choice of color for Matt's clothing. So I was like "OMG I must get a striped black and white shirt" and I finally did. After she got pissed off saying tha t it was ugly, I was able to get it... Well, off to upload that pic to Myspace ...later ... >.>
Okay, that is all.
-Cindy
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Okay, I'll go away now...
XD. My hair isn't naturally wavy... I just curled it that day. It's naturally flat. T-T
huzzah for lazyness!!!! It's quite alright. I'm extremely lazy too. I've been meaning to re-organize my site for a long time but still haven't gotten to it yet. oh well. I'll link you now though.
Oh, and don't worry. I completely understand about the background pattern thing. It takes a lot to make me go wtf on people. Most of the time it a wtf did you tell me that for rather than a wtf are you talking about... ^^
PB&J!!!!!